July 30, 2008 Blessings of the Fire

Is. 8:12-13
...and you are not to fear what they fear or to be in dread of it. It
is the LORD OF HOSTS whom you should regard as Holy. And He shall be
your fear and He shall be your dread. Then He shall become a
sanctuary."

God in His mercy and grace gave me this manna before my oncology
appointment. Today I met with my oncologist, (who is a believer) and
Ken and I feel a peace from the Lord. He has suggested a strong chemo
to kill potential malignancy. Its call red devil and I will have 4
shots every 3 weeks. After that there will be more drugs (for about a
year) but they will be easy compared to the other. I'm hoping I can
finish my breast reconstruction before the red devil. I will have to
have a port put in...

all in all,
you process all the facts and come back to the same place you
started. I am here to enjoy God and glorify Him forever. I love
that!!!!!!! After listening to statistics and facts I love how God is
so uncomplicated!!! Please continue to pray that I will keep my eyes
on Jesus and look to give Him glory at every opportunity. Ken and the
kids seem to be doing well. We talk a lot and when I told them I would
probably loose my hair they responded with such sweet encouragement.
The Lord is growing precious fruit from this, definitely a blessing
from the fire.

Fear tries to demand my attention but the LORD truly goes before me in
the Word...God is to us a God of deliverances; and to God the Lord
belong escapes from death Ps. 68:20
If I belong to the Lord and I believe His Word, He is over all my
days. What I have control over is how I will live out those days. I
talked with a woman today in the waiting room, her cancer has come
back. I told it doesn't matter in that it doesn't change how we live,
we still will worship. With tears in her eyes and a beautiful smile
she agreed. A blessing of the fire is that you look at death. Am I
ready? Will I have regret when I am absent from the body and present
with the Lord. Do I know Him, believe Him and understand that He is
God. I believe that is my purpose in life...God doesn't want us to
know that He is all that because He is puffed up with Himself. He
KNOWS that He is all that and longs for us to know it as well so when
I do stand before Him, "the Bride has made herself ready" Rev. 19.
If I know this, I will live this!!

The thought came to me the other day, can I trust God with the desires
of my heart? Yes, He is trustworthy!!! I want to live this out...
that I may know Him, and the power of resurrection and the fellowship
of His sufferings, being conformed to His death; in order that I may
attain to the resurrection from the dead. Not that I have already
obtained it, or have already become perfect, but I press on in order
that I may lay hold of that for which also I was laid hold of by
Christ Jesus...
Oh, please pray for a double portion of faith for me, that I will
press on and celebrate our Lord in the midst of suffering....
Blessed be the Lord who daily bears our burden, The God who is our
salvation Ps 68
Pray that I won't forfeit anything that God longs to show me.
Thank you for all you have done and the love you have shown. What an
encouragement you are to me...
I pray to tabernacle with our God!!! sherri